So. I think enough time has gone by since my first entry... Let me calculate... Yup, a little over 2 months. I'm sorry I never get a chance to update, it's not even like I have a good excuse; I certainly don't have a life.
So yeah, I'm back in Cobleskill. And Mark is at Cornell. We're still good. Still happy and all that; I'll spare you all the sappy details... I still have my car and amazingly enough, it is still in one piece (After having a transmission line go once, blow a tire on 90, said transmission line go again and leave me stranded, and service engine soon and coolent low light acting like a freaking blinking christmas light bulbs)... My computer however, has not faired so well. I never really had a problem with this, though I should have known it was coming... I mean, the charger can only get ripped out of the computer just so many times before it kills the computer. In my defense, I'm a college kid and sometimes kids trip over power cords, whatever, it happens. Anyway, about a day after we got internet here at the apartment, the computer stopped taking a charge. I knew it wasn't the charger because I had replaced it a few months earlier... So a few days later I took it to the mac store, where they told me it would be $300 flat rate to ship it out, they couldn't guarentee that this was the only problem, and if there was a bigger problem, it would be $600 more. So, in short, since I'm a poor college kid with no job... *gulp* I bought an HP laptop. RIP The Monster. You will forever be missed.
Let me just say that I hate HP and Windows Vista with a god damn passion. I really wish I could have afforded a mac, but I needed a computer and I wasn't really given much of a choice. I mean, it takes getting used to, and it's not TOO horrible... But I go to hook it up to my HP three-in-one 1610 that I bought from the mac store with my Monster 3 years ago, and it says it can't find the software for it, so I download it, and now my computer comes up with internal errors. AND it won't scan normally. You have to scan it from paint. And everytime you're done using the printer, you have to delete it. FUCK YOU WINDOWS, FUCK YOU. Ok, I'm done.
One more thing before I get moving onto why I'm really updating this... So tonight, I decided to drink a bit of Red Cat and study for my Problems with Domestic Animal Behavior class, and watch a movie. So I get done studying, I'm chilling here watching Super Troopers, and I see this little grey thing out of the corner of my eye; I automatically think that it's a moth, because I have been battling them a bit in the last few days... Previous to this, I opened my closet door to air it out because I live in the basement and its a little bit musty... not to find a mouse. So yeah, it didn't take me long to discover that they little grey thing which I had previously thought was a moth, was a little tiny baby mouse. Thank God I am not my sister, because she would have screamed and woke the whole house up, but I shooed it into a corner, put the garbage can over it, and called my roommate Andrew Kludt (Kludt) for some assistance. Luckily, Abbie's hamster died a few weeks ago, so we have an empty hamster cage, which is where I placed the little bugger.
I felt bad killing him... So sue me. So now he is my little make shift pet that stays on my desk, which will make things interesting when demon child (my dads cat) comes to visit when I have to take him to my Problems with Domestic Animals class... Oh well...
So... My real reason for writing, mainly because it's been on my mind for quite a while now, plus I have nothing else to do right now so it's the perfect opportunity! School has been going well and everything; aside from actually having classes where you have to do homework, read, and study... And I don't have much of a social life anymore. I hardly ever go out because we live so far away from everything, and I don't like getting hammered out of my mind so much anymore. I miss last year, but not because of these reasons... I think that more than anything, what is bringing me back to last year, is fall itself. The smell, the atmosphere... You all know what I mean, so I'm not crazy. But along with missing last year, it's also making me miss the people. A lot. Many people have graduated or transferred, and it makes me sad.
For some reason, I've been standing back away from the picture a lot and assessing my life now, and comparing it to how it was. In hindsight, I guess I knew how good I had it, but I never fully appreciated it. (Well, maybe Spring semester I did... =P But anyway...) Last fall I probably met the best people in my life so far, and now they're gone. Not completely gone, but distanced, kind of. I made so many good friends... I really wish I could put it in to words... And no, for all of you thinking I'm talking completely about Mark, I'm not. We haven't been 'distanced' other than physically... I'm talking roughly about this time a year ago. Some of those friendships will never be the same, but I know the ones that came to be tight... will they hopefully never die. I'm probably just rambling on again (I do tend to do that), but I can't help it.
When I walk out of my classes and outside of the buildings and just stand outside, and look up at the sky and smell the Fall air that is now present, all of those memories come flooding back, and I just wish that a maroon Chevy pick up will come pick me up and take me back to 80, or take me to Prentice. Yeah, if you guys didn't know who I was talking about now, most of you will... =P It's not like I'm going to leave Mark for him or anything, it's not like that. I just miss the closeness. How inseperable we were. I could sleep in his bed when I was lonely, sad, or just plain tired and nothing would happen. He never tried anything. It was never more than that for us. And that's what I miss. No matter what, nobody here in Coby will live up to that. Sure, I have Kludt, but it doesn't quite compare. I just want last year back so I can relive it again... It was probably the best year of my life. I just want that person who, no matter what, will be there for you. The shoulder to cry on (or in some cases, to be the shoulder). He was always there for me... for everything I went through, and most of it was bad, but some was good... I just... I hope you all have that one person in your life. If not now, then I wish you had them at one point, or will have them. And please do me a favor, when they show up, make sure you can identify it for what it is, and appreciate it; don't take it for granted. Because before you know it, it will be gone.
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